Thursday, June 08, 2006

hating myself for feeling for him so horribly much. coz everytime i do, these tears, they just automatically flow. i love him so much. and i am so, so scared of spoiling everything.

everything.

one of us will die inside these arms.

maktub.

skribbled at 4:30 PM

Monday, June 05, 2006

i have lost all sense of the rules. perhaps memory has failed me. or maybe, the rules have changed. it's been so long after all.
this time, i really am not sure whether or not it's entirely a fault of mine. but god, how i do lose interest in a blinking of an eye! well, maybe it was 40part my fault, so let me apologize, i'm sorry you're not interesting enough.

i think he's got issues he's gotta deal with first before he starts to deal with me. i'm a bigger pandora's box than everybody's ever given me credit for. so he'd better watch out if he thinks he can mess with me this time.

the waiting kills me and leaves me almost dry. and by the time it arrives, lethargy has already taken root, and my eyes would've already succumbed to slumber. what can i do? my life runs by clockwork now. and i don't assume you're the technician. no pun intended.

i have this raging question inside. for both of em.
which one shall i kill first? that depends on the fluidity of the moment.
only god knows how my heart screams for the calls to come. is your voice that precious, my love?

maktub.

skribbled at 3:04 PM