Monday, October 24, 2005

know what i call perfect?
That's what i call perfect.

a twentysixyearold.with.every t h i n g.
mashaaAllah.

maktub.

skribbled at 10:36 AM

Sunday, October 16, 2005

The way you skin feels beneath my fingers. The way you have just the right amount of hair. The way my arms so snugly fit your girth. The way you lazily say 'hmmm..?' when you're so preoccupied with your stuff and yet I still bug you for the slightest of matters. Or when you're sleepy but I still wana stay up and talk.
All these things and more perhaps but it's all....

VL was interviewed the other day and was asked if there was one thing in her life she would change, what would be it? They prompted her about the divorce. And similarly, she too wouldn't change the divorce from happening as it did also bring along learning experiences during its bitter course.

Though sometimes the days get rough, I thank God my hide is getting thicker and that I'm getting more jaded by the day. Sure, every girl's secret dream is to get married someday but what should I do if the right one doesn't/ hasn't come along yet? Marry any old person with balls that come along? No thank you. Despite my bad encounters, and my supposed jadedness about it all, I still do staunchly believe there IS a thing called love and there IS someone for everyone out there, it's just a matter of when. The waiting game. Right now, I'm content to just happily play the Observer.
Mr. SB I believe, IS my soul-mate, but he's someone I dun think I can live with, coz simply put, he just doesn't offer me any excitement! It's like having to go through life blind-folded and still knowing how to get around. Mr. Nemo, though.. hmm.. he's a toughie. He's like the male version of my mind, brought to life! In a male form! And of course there's the ever loveable Mr. HairyLadyLegs. How I still do scrumptiously adore thee.

Sigh. I'm such a sad case. And still thoughts of Mr. Three over playDoh Boy. I don't mind risks, really. But the fact that the other person does, affects me, and subsequently, the decision I make. It's a bit confusing really but that's DM logic for you. Sigh.

maktub.

skribbled at 2:53 AM

Saturday, October 15, 2005

funny how my mind can switch frequency ever so quickly. like how, an hour ago, i was crying and missing someone, and the next hour, someone else completely.
all coz i saw a picture of someone who looked spittingly like the latter. i kid you not. sigh. he must be married by now dammit. lucky broad.
and the other case's gone and got himself hitched. yes! hitched!
but who cares. i'd pick playDoh over him. teehee.
ahh..and now my mind is playing with thoughts of mr. three.
actually, i coulda let it happen if i wanted to, but my mind's shut off, i'm sorry to say. i really coulda let it happen a mth ago.
sigh-

i wonder if i will be this fickle forever.

maktub.

skribbled at 9:32 PM

Sunday, October 09, 2005

rasa macam nak mampos betul. sungguh. tak bedek.
an article to complete. half more of an essay to finish.
three articles to edit.
all by tomorrow.
i think i'm superwoman or WHAT??
sigh. wish i can bonk myself on the head. or slap myself silly.
so tired now. thought i could stay till 12, wake up at 4:30 or smthg and continue to do the work. but now my brain is dead and i have nothing on my template still.
i don't rock anymore. i suck.
suck suck suck :(

maktub.

skribbled at 2:00 AM

Monday, October 03, 2005

be still, my heart
for tomorrow will burst
with secrets you have never known.

and yesterday will just be
a past figment of your imagination.

what is a life without love
but a journey of silence and stillness.

maktub.

skribbled at 3:07 AM